Winter Edition 2023
Steak for breakfast and lunch please!
I wake up in the cloudy morning. I suddenly smell something once I come out! II I see something on the table. It looked like… STEAK! It was creamy, and juicy with a big explosion of taste booming in my mouth. Later on the bright cloudy sky turned bright blue as the clouds disappeared with a blue aura filling it up. Then before I knew it, it was lunch. I saw some yellowtail fish filet steak that was cooked to a beautiful golden brown color. I bit into the creamy golden brown fish and then I felt a bunch of action inside my mouth. The artichokes made it more moist, making a watery feeling. And then I felt a feeling of dryness and moisture as it filled my mouth with creaminess. With all my heart and soul, I screamed “Steak for Breakfast and Lunch Please!”.
Today, I’m going to sled on Deadman's Hill. It looked super scary, as much as the name is. Many people don’t hate it, because they already knew how to sled, ski or snowboard. SCREEEEE…. We park at an empty parking lot. Once I touched the chalky concrete of the parking lot with my soft snow boots, I stared at the hill. It was bigger than any hill I ever saw in my life. The icy wind blew in my hair. I then say to myself, This is it. This is it. Deadman's Hill. I stared at the snowy whitish hill that went 1700 feet downward. I got interrupted by my Mom and Dad. STEP, STEP, STEP, STEP, STEP. They looked at me and Mom said, Don’t be scared, I’m by your side. Then my dad said, It’s okay, it’s your FIRST time. You will feel braver the more and more we do it. I hopped on my sled and held on for dear life as I got pushed and then a few seconds later, AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! WHOOSH! Some people say that screaming makes you feel better. But unfortunately, it doesn’t for me. Then I suddenly remember Dad’s words. You will feel braver the more and more we do it. That cheered me up a little more! I then feel more courageous and proud and then I stop screaming and just calmly make it down the hill. Deadman’s Hill. I made it. I see my parents skiing downwards. They see me and happily pat me on the back. I then asked with a happy voice, Can we do it again please? PLEASE? I LOVED IT! Then we did it all again.
Moral of the story: Never be afraid of something when you haven't even tried it yet.
An Audition of a Lifetime
When I was younger, I was never really outgoing. I was what some people might call a viewer or a watcher. I was always shy and didn’t want to express myself.
On the other hand, my cousins were all about performing. One of the main things that they did was performed in the Nutcracker, a story of fantasy, Romance, fighting, and overall dancing. It is actually what the Nutcracker is, sort of a long play with no words and only expressing the play itself through dance of all kinds - tap, jazz, flamenco, and mainly Ballet.
Me and my grandma have had a tradition to go to the Nutcracker every year since I was young, to go and see the dancers and to see my cousins perform in it. Whether we had brought people along or we didn’t get the best of seats, I was always so amazed at the profound performances that they choreographed, wondering how much time it must have taken to get into the Nutcracker ballet, and the strength and work people put into making it wonderful. I just didn’t know it then but, sooner or later I would know exactly what I once had questions about.
Now, this was the Civic Theatre in DownTown, San Diego with a capacity of 2,976. You were lucky enough to get a ticket with the price and the time it takes to choose the seats and everything, but to be on the stage and to perform is more than anything some people could ever dream of.
Now mind you besides being myself at home, I could express myself at my very own dance studio. Well, it is not my studio but everyone there knew me ‘cause I have been there since I was 3. It wasn’t big or anything. I just took a class once or twice a week and then that ended up being a nice performance each year at Clairemont High School and then a performance at the Del Mar Fair. Thanks to that little studio down the street from my house, I would have never known what to do when the day came for me to do what I had to do.
My oldest cousin Sophie loved to play soccer, so one day we went to one of her games. We were walking back from the car when they had mentioned that they were going to the auditions for the Nutcracker. I had asked when it was and where it was, and they had said that it was at California Ballet Company. Well, I had never heard of that place, but I made it clear in my mind that I was going to sign up and enter that audition. Of course, I wasn’t serious about it or anything, but I was serious about knowing what to do when they were expecting me to know.
I was practicing my butt off making sure that I knew everything there's to know about the audition expectations. The day before the auditions, there was a private opportunity for me only to go to a little dance studio a couple blocks away from my house to go and practice with some other girls. Once we got there, I was really nervous because I don’t like performing in front of strangers. Well, look who came out of a back room but my nice P.E teacher Mrs. Ryan. Usually that might make someone feel a little less nervous but, that just made me feel worse. When I got back home, I was sad and disappointed. I never did end up doing the dancing thing with those girls, because I would have had to do their dance routine with their moves that I didn’t even know. I was also thinking, if I can’t even do it in front of those girls, how am I supposed to perform in front of the directors who choose the people for the Nutcracker at auditions the next day?
The next day was auditions. It was actually really cool. My cousin Briana was with me and some of her friends. When you first audition, you feel like butterflies in your stomach. Well, I felt like that but, at the end you usually feel like you did a great job. When we had to go in for the auditions to start, they took like 15 people at a time. During my time, I did everything that they told us to do and I felt like I didn’t do as well as my cousin Briana. Once I walked out of the California Ballet Company building that day, I felt great. I did my best and I accomplished something that I was meaning to do. We didn’t hear back from them for a while, so I was getting nervous like I didn’t make it.
One day I was watching a movie with my brother, and all of a sudden my Grandma said ''Lilliana you got a part for the Nutcracker.” I was so excited! I ended up being a little Welcomer for Clara and the Nutcracker Prince into the Land of Sweets. Immediately the next day, we went out to go get the things we needed for rehearsals to start preparing for the shows!
I started rehearsing once or twice a week for 2 hours all of November. My cousin Briana sometimes had rehearsals on the floor above us, so we would go watch her before rehearsals. Her brother Luke LOVED me. We were the same age so we would hang out before my rehearsals were starting. My group had 11 girls and 4 boys. My cousin Luke was the Little Bear and The Baker. We weren't in the same scene except for when he was the Baker.
One day, a girl who was my partner for the show broke her arm and I had the option to take over her spot, which evidently meant that it would double my shows to 17. I went with Yes because I loved the dressing rooms which were right next to my cousin Briana’s dressing room. I also had made a lot of friends and I love to perform. Overall this story is to say that when you really have something in mind and you want to pursue that dream, you do it and you reach for the stars. Look what happened to me!!!
When I was 8 I would walk through a public place hoping everyone looked at me, because who wouldn't like what they saw.
I walked and hoped that a pair of eyes would land on me and see someone special, someone who was more than just another pair of eyes. Eyes following me meant they had something to look at, something that made them not want to look away.
I always thought of eyes as a positive thing, why would I assume otherwise. They were always positive until they weren't, until someone's eyes were negative, then eyes had a different meaning, Eyes hold so much emotion and thought and you will never be able to tell what's behind them, they are a mystery that's impossible to solve.
Eyes have always meant so much, one second they were all i wanted, the next they were something i couldn't escape, like they put me in a long hallway that never seemed to end There's a million ways to interpret a look, everyone has to guess, my guess is now negative and i dont know if it will ever change When someone looks at me now all i can think of is my flaws. They may be looking at me because they like my shirt but my mind says they think I look bad in blue. They are looking because they like how my hair looks but my mind says that they think I shouldn't have curled it that day. They are looking with heart eyes but all I can see is hatred, hatred my mind created.
Now when all eyes are on me I feel trapped like i can't move, i cant breath,i can't function. It's like I'm stuck and there's nothing I can do, like I'm surrounded by people but I'm all alone. Just me and my thoughts, never a good duo.
The Themes of Right and Wrong in “Macbeth”
In William Shakespeare's play "Macbeth" the characters of Macbeth and Macduff are both central to the story and have complex and nuanced motivations and actions. As such, it is difficult to simply label one of these characters as the villain and the other as the hero. Instead, the relationship between Macbeth and Macduff is more complicated with both characters exhibiting both good and evil qualities at various points in the play.
At the outset of the play, Macbeth is a brave and loyal soldier who has just helped Scotland defeat a rebellion against King Duncan. However, he is also ambitious and easily swayed by the prophecies of the witches and the manipulations of his wife Lady Macbeth. When the witches tell Macbeth that he will become Thane of Cawdor and eventually king, Macbeth begins to think about killing Duncan in order to seize the throne for himself. Despite his initial concerns Macbeth eventually decides to murder Duncan, setting in motion a chain of events that leads to his downfall.
On the other hand, Macduff is a noble and honorable character who is loyal to Duncan. When Macbeth becomes king and begins to act tyrannically, Macduff becomes one of the leaders of the rebellion against him. He also has a little grudge against Macbeth, as Macbeth has ordered the brutal murder of Macduff's family. Despite this, Macduff remains a noble and honorable character, and his actions are driven by a desire to restore justice to Scotland.
It is difficult to determine if Macbeth is the villain and Macduff is the hero. While Macbeth is responsible for the murder of Duncan and the chaos that ensues, he is also a complex character who is torn between his loyalty to Duncan and his own ambition. Similarly, while Macduff is a noble and honorable character, he is also driven by a personal vendetta against Macbeth and is willing to go to great lengths to defeat hims In conclusion, the relationship between Macbeth and Macduff in "Macbeth" is more complicated than a simple story of right and wrong. Both characters exhibit both good and evil qualities, and their motivations and actions are shaped by personal ambition, loyalty and a desire for justice.